February 2011
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January 2011
Fuck you. I'm trying my hardest but it's never...
Kissing my piano lessons goodbye.
This is rather depressing. I’ve had hardly any time to practice lately because of everything that’s on my plate, so my parents suggested that I take a hiatus from lessons until April/May. By suggested, I mean forcefully suggested. They wouldn’t be happy with me if I refused, plus they’re paying for it so they’d probably make me stop soon anyhow. Two to three months...
I’m going to keep trying for you. Or, basically, I’m trying for you this one last time. I don’t know what else I can do but try. I want to be happy, and you make me happy… even though you’re not right now. I don’t understand your odd communication skills, at ALL, but I’m not willing to give up. The worst part about it is that we would both love to be with...
I want to get "Scars Are Beautiful Stories"...
Depressive realism →
floatingparticles:
Depressive realism is the proposition that people with depression actually have a more accurate perception of reality, specifically that they are less affected by positive illusions of illusory superiority, the illusion of control and optimism bias. The concept refers to people with borderline or moderate depression, suggesting that while non-depressed people see things in an ...
s-e-e-k asked: Thank you dear, I miss and love you.
And who do you think you are Running ‘round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart You’re gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don’t come back for me Who do you think you are Dear, it took so long just to feel alright Remember how to put back the light in my eyes I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed Cause you broke all your...
Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad...
“I need to be alone. I need to ponder my shame and my despair in seclusion; I...”
– Tropic of Cancer by Henry Miller (via thechocolatebrigade)
What do I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be lost in someone.
So lost that I can never find my way out.
I want them to be lost in me too.
I want a boy best friend who will call me...
I have this. And I am so lucky to. <333 Jacob = Love.
blueoctane asked: That's awesome! I'm jealouuuuuuuus of your Alesana exposure ;)
I wanna see them soooooo badly.
Lez go.
Okay. Favorite album?
I wanna see them soooooo badly.
Lez go.
Okay. Favorite album?
Numb to everything.
I refuse to partake in this he said she said bullshit. He says one thing and she says another, but frankly, I’m not going to waste my precious time trying to figure out what is actually legit. Maybe none of it is and they’re pulling one over on me, who knows. The only thing I’m sure of? I don’t care enough to figure it out. The only thing I care about is trying not to let...
"I love you!" Yeah, whatever. Fuck you. I would...
Carrie.
I wish I could look like I did for Halloween last year every day. Is that creepy? “Sexy but deadly” is something I could rock every day, yeah.
Teenage Dream: A Boy’s Perspective
I am seriously obsessed with Amy Lee. I think half...
I remember kissing you on the beach, me in my bikini and you in your shorts. I don’t think you even realized I was trying to cover up the cuts on my thighs the whole time. To me, that’s sad.
Sometimes I wish the voices were in my head so they could lock me up. Sometimes I long for the padded white walls and the silence that is coupled with it.
blueoctane asked: Hahahaha yess, we follow each other on Twitter. Gawd, I love the interwebz. And The L Word. Kate atwjgsfidjlksgesjdgosfiewljagtperjs <3
All of these self-harm posts are very eye-opening....
